thanksgiving beauty

jeff and i had a wonderful day of hiking and exploring in acadia national park.

there was next to no one around and we were able to do some stress free exploring.

the sun was bright and the shadows were long.

the day was too short, but darkness comes early these days.

a quick stop home for coffee, turkey and cold stuffing

then over to see ben, meghan, and joey for a while.

its been a good day.

i am thankful

Prancer

 

this movie makes me very, very happy.

i love, love, love it.  and i’m not a movie person.

i bought this first on vhs years ago

then on dvd waterproof phone case.

and i watch it at least once maybe more each december.

i’m gonna watch it today!

it is 40ish and sunny today.  a beautiful day.

we skipped church this morning The best mobile accessories

hiked a nearby hill we’ve never hiked before.

there was no trail, but it was a small enough hill to find our way.  the leaves being down makes it much easier to do this because your views of landmarks are not obstructed.

holidays

in my journey through life this far i have tried earnestly to discover what it is that God requires of me, without being legalistic.  when the kids were growing up i realized that i was just repeating what i’d known about most holidays.  but things started to bug me and my heart was being pulled.

long story shortened so as not to become boring:  i decided that halloween was not to be “celebrated” . dressing up for fun and having a harvest party at some other point in the fall-ok.

thanksgiving–wonderful family feasting thankful reflection holiday.  it is good to give thanks every day.  but as a nation it is an awesome statement.  i’m alarmed by how many things i read in opposition to thanksgiving. i do not like that the black friday spendfest is somewhat connected to it.

christmas. this was the tough one.  by the time i started to be convicted of stuff the kids were past the santa phase.  oh, so much scripture searching and soul searching.

we stopped the tree.  i decorate with greens and sometimes have little accent trees, but the tree had become an idol to me.  so many people have said to me (christians) “how can you have christmas without a tree?”  yup, its become an idol for you if you think that it can’t be christmas without one.  the tree stressed me–i ditched it.  and i don’t miss it. at. all.

the gifting. crazy stuff. spending money buying stuff for people that they probably won’t use.  stopped the gifting one year and just concentrated on other fun things.  the kids were very happy.  the next year we gifted but limited it.  now we just pull names in sept. and we don’t buy for any extended family.  i do make some homemade stuff & food gifts.

now, the big one:  santa.  after going in one side and out the other on this topic, here is where i am.  i see nothing wrong with childhood fantasy.  in a christian household that lives their lives with God at the center, children know the difference between make believe and real.  they know God is real because they see Him work in their lives and their parents lives.  same with the easter bunny, tooth fairy, etc….  childhood is all about make believe and fantasy and that is a good thing!

well, now that i got that off of my chest–on to bigger and better things!

have a great monday!!!!

notebooks

i love to write stuff in notebooks.

i have a notebook for bible study

scrapbooking ideas,

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a notebook i keep with my computer to write interesting stuff down in and to keep all of my passwords in

a notebook to write my food journal in

a notebook to write political, moral ramblings.  i occassionally write letters to the newspaper.  mostly in support of homeschooling and other conservative issues registration of company in Hong Kong.

i have a notebook that i write stories in (i’ve written a few childrens stories so far–all set in my neighborhood here on the wink)

i think i am addicted to writing because it helps me keep all of my thoughts and stuff straight and it helps me get things done. ( i make lists and lists and lists亞洲知識管理學院)

yes. my notebooks make me happy

i loved paper!

today is a dreary late fall day.  there is now some snow on the ground   it snow about an inch or so, but then sleet, freezing rain and now just rain and its quite foggy out there.

quiet day…cooked my husbands absolutely favorite dish: gizzards and hearts with onions and gravy slow cooked in the crock pot with mixed veggies and egg noodles.  i won’t be sharing.  it’s something he loves, not me!

thought i’d share this photo

i guess i could look up its exact name but i’m just not that interested.  it grows all over the mountaintops here. it makes a really soft cushion.  my husband calls it mountain coral because thats what it looks like.  i like that name.

學習爲了什麽

問自己,學習爲了什麽?第一個念頭,爲了國家富強。但是下一秒就給否定了,就憑我麽?然後就是爲了好好生存?但是下一秒又被自己否定了,我就這麽沒用麽?再下去,爲了讓我自己像一個人,爲了可以讓更多的人過上幸福的生活。最近在看《沈思錄》,他說我們做的任何事,都要想一想,這是不是一個人能夠做應該做的。那麽學習呢?就是爲了自己更像一個人。從來沒有一個完整意義的人,就連那些偉人也不過是在後世的評價中成爲人而已。人就是一個定義,而我們學習還有活著就是給這個定義增加更多的定義,或者說讓我們自己更趨于一個完美的人。

有人從我的心走出去了,那麽就很難有人再走進去了。最近跟後桌女生玩的還可以,也許以後回憶起這段我們被作業試卷包圍的日子,那張一笑起來就會紅的臉會讓我有些安慰,畢竟在這時候我還可以憑借自己的嘴巴收獲一個個微笑。

我就是一個普通的人,有理想有夢想,現在就想著在一模就過了,讓我可以去江門一中,然後就可以一直笑下去。

煩惱著些什麽

有時候爲一些小事就心情不好,那種無確切理由的心情不好。自己知道爲什麽心情不好,但還無法與人言說那種不值得提及的小事。

蘇打綠的《喜歡寂寞》那首歌的專輯,名字叫《你在煩惱著些什麽》。

我就在想,我在煩惱著些什麽。

但我發現那些東西很瑣碎,遍及好多方面。也許這就是生活吧,一直處在制造煩惱和解決煩惱的永不間斷的過程中。

我不喜歡膽小的人。我不喜歡依賴別人的人。我不喜歡人雲亦雲的人。我不喜歡過分在乎自己的人也不喜歡過分在乎別人的人。

我喜歡像風一樣的人,內心獨立,骨子裏有一種流浪的情懷。在路上,永遠動蕩,顛簸,無所畏懼。

忘了誰曾說過,一個人的一生應該這樣,童年有遊戲的快樂,青年有流浪的經曆,老年有滿滿的回憶。

我相信唯有這樣,當一切沈靜之時,剩下的才是飽滿生動的人生。

我喜歡不起

有一天夜裏聽了一個電台,一個安靜但有青春氣息的男聲,他說,我喜歡你你知道嗎。

我想,關于這個問題,或許你不知道吧。

所以我,還是自己在路上走著,感受到一點點湧上來的莫名的失落。

你知道嗎,就是那種莫名的空蕩蕩的失落感,然後在心髒四溢開來,蔓延全身。

縱然人來人往,我還是會站在人來人往的街頭想起你。那種想念不太濃郁,只是淡淡的。

我看見好多人,看見好多張臉,可惜都不是你的。如果遇見,那麽,是好久不見,還是不如不見?

現在是什麽日子,什麽季節,不重要。我只知道,我又想起了你一次。

不知道那算不算喜歡,如果算,有多少。

如果算,我真的承擔不了它的分量。

我喜歡不起。

平安健康

依然不能習慣爺爺的離開……

爺爺的離開是那樣的突然,那樣的沒有預兆,讓所有人都始料不及

而我們,卻還遠在廣州,接到噩耗的一瞬間,恨不得馬上飛回,偏恰逢節日,車票難訂,唯有在電話裏哭喊著,讓爺爺彌留之際能聽到我們的聲音……

哭著睡著了,夢裏爺爺還安好慈祥的和我們一起吃飯,說話,多希望夢永遠不要醒……

樹欲靜而風不止,子欲養而親不在,當經曆了,才發現現實的殘酷與無奈,生命的脆弱得像玻璃,碎了就再也拼不回去了

爺爺,希望您在天堂過的好,保佑我們平安健康

一直以來,自己總有一個夢想,于是朝著這個夢想努力的前進。

爲了這個夢想,舍棄很多,錯過很多,但是並沒有覺得後悔,因爲實現夢想是最大的願望。

可是,當發現,原來自己所做的努力,在別人看來是那樣虛假,是那樣的不堪……

努力了這麽多,努力了這麽久,可是從不知道會是這樣的結果

很多時候,會問自己,放棄那麽多,值得嗎?答案始終是肯定的。然而當發現努力被否定的時候,才知道,自己是如此的不堪一擊

突然覺得很悲哀,卻不知道在悲哀什麽……悲哀現實的殘酷,還是悲哀他人的誤解,抑或悲哀自己